Pankow 3-4th hour. On the way back to school I ride the same bus, and sit in the same fucking seat, everyday. You pass the bus, you pass the seat, you pass me. EVERYDAY. You know I sit there we have exchanged the awkward glance through the window as you walk by. I have to pretend you don’t exist, and you do the same. Whatever I ain’t even mad. The part that pisses me off is of the like 400 seat you could choose from you sat in mine. Why? I don’t fucking know. Are you reaching out to me again? Are you just being a Jackass?
Some times stupid shit pisses me off. I wish people could have a more direct approach, if you wanna talk to me text me, call me, talk to me. Do whatever you feel comphy with, don’t sit in my seat, because I’m not going to sit with you. Don’t think I’m going to take that as you reaching out, it’s just confusing.
On the other hand if what I just found out is true, than it all makes a lot of sense to me… So I guess we will see.
Blow up my dash with pictures of couples cuddling of kissing when I feel like hell, or when I miss you to the point ware I can’t fucking stand it. You mean so much to me, and I want to be with you all the time. Everyday. I love you. Regardless of what happened last night when I need you, you will be there for me. So you’ll call when you get home, and I’ll fucking rant until I can’t breathe, and you’ll tell me I’m cute, and that you love me. When I’m a sobbing mess you’ll tell me you want to cuddle and kiss my face, and make it all go away. Now, I’m really going to take a shower.
I just got done watching “The Social Network” it was a movie about the creator of Facebook and how it got its name and so on and so forth, basically start to finish what happen to Facebook. Well at the very end of the movie it said that there are like 500 million members in 207 countries using Facebook… I’m going to venture to say that of the 207 countries at least some of them don’t have running water, or paved roads. Not only that, I can’t even begin to wrap my mind around 500 million people. What are all those people doing at any given moment? How many of them have I seen walking down the street and how many have seen me? How many deal with the same things day to day that I deal with? I guess, it’s just crazy that you can talk to some one that is in a completely different time zone, someone on the complete other side of the world, and what? Its at the touch of a button? Type in a few words in the search bar, hit enter, click around till you find what you are looking for and that’s it.. That’s it… It’s amazing, and all of us use it just about everyday and don’t think twice about it, because it’s so normal, we have always had it around. When you really think about it though, because of the internet thing of all the things you didn’t get to experience as a kid, that your parents or grandparents did. I hadn’t actually listened to a record till last Christmas. Do you know records sounds better than CD’s? And on top of that you feel so must more connected to the music because you have to get up and flip it and set the needle, I know it seems small and stupid, but it’s such a big change from being able to walk over to a CD player put for or five in at one time and listen to them run. Not only that it’s so so so much different than making a play list on your computer and letting that run while you sleep or clean your room. I’m not at all complaining about what technology has done for me, or my family, or the world, but sometimes it’s crazy to just take a step back and think that any ware from a year to ten years ago things were so much different than they are now.. and that are forever changing because a few people got together and deiced to make the internet..