You know what sucks? Having your fucking world flipped upside down. Your ‘best friend’ only calls you or texts you when she needs something. I’m single now for the first time in eight months, but that’s all you really cared about anyway. Sorry it didn’t come sooner. Fuck you. I don’t want to talk to you; not now at least, you’ve already gotten what you wanted. I fucking stood up for myself. I was done being yelled at, I was done being accused of shit, I was done being called names by the person that called me every night to say good night and told me he loved me. It’s not healthy, for me, but you never really cared about what was wrong with me, you just wanted your fucking fix.
And in more twists of events, the people who I though didn’t give a shit really do.
I got college stuff in the mail today. I guess I’m ready for it. In order to combat thinking about it, I cleaned. ALL DAY. I know I really have to start planning this out, I guess I just don’t want to be disappointed. I don’t want the college I want to get into to tell me no. I seriously would be heart broken if after all this time I couldn’t go to school with my big brother for the first time in my life. I can’t see why they would deny me. I have the ACT scores, and the GPA, but I’m still nervous. I have less than a year left, then I’m out. I’ll be off to Missouri.